How far along? 30 weeks 3 days
Maternity clothes? Yep. Cam’s shirts fit me really good right now, too. I’m currently measuring 39.5 weeks for a singleton pregnancy, so apparently this is what I would look like at full term if we were only having one baby. I’m pretty content with that. I could totally have one baby. Height helps, y’all.
Best moment this week: The Baby Shower on Saturday! I can’t believe how many of you came out to support me and spoil these little boys! I had a fabulous time. The room was packed and two very talented ladies made it so dang cute. My sister finished the baby call quilt just in time. I will be blogging this in its own post. It deserves it.
Movement: All the time! They respond to sounds now too. It’s interesting to me. Last night I figured out that they don’t like rap much. The opening scene to an episode of Friday Night Lights was at a party. They didn’t move at all. Then, the happy-go-lucky title sequence music started and they both kicked/rolled/danced through the entire thing. Gray is now head down (YAY!), which means they are curled up together and they both kick the same spots, but my ribs have never felt better. Bruises are getting the chance to heal for the time being. Sweet mercy, it’s fantastic. I think Nash is getting a bit of revenge for being sat on for so long because he’s now the one squishing Gray. We found out yesterday that Nash has caught up and is only 3 oz. smaller than his brother. He’s taller though. :) And has a bigger noggin.
Food cravings: Fruits and veggies. And water. I’ve heard the never-ending thirst gets worse when you breastfeed. Not sure how it can get worse. I drink more than 100+ oz. of water every single day. Not including juice and milk consumption which is also at an all-time high. And I am still *parched*. (please say parched in a high squeaky voice, a la Squince from the Sandlot during the vacuum scene). I can’t handle the heater being on in the car because it dries out my lips and throat even more and induces a panic attack. Cam drives with very cold hands now. He’s a trooper. :) (I also turn the heater off at home all the time. It’s enough to stress me out in less than a second. Feels like I can’t breathe.)
Labor Signs: Went on a walk a couple days ago. Had to stop because I was blacking out. Cam sat me down on the couch for the rest of the night after we finally made it home. The walk was maybe 10 minutes. Considering I’m measuring “full term” and my uterus thinks it should be done stretching, the Dr. says that blacking out is perfectly normal, but that I should really be taking it easy for the next 6+ weeks. Both boys are weighing in at just under 4 pounds, so we’ve got almost 8 pounds of baby in there!
Belly Button in or out? Consider it at ground zero. Have you ever seen a belly button that is stretched flat? It is a bizarre looking situation.
What I miss: Not really sure how to answer this one. Yesterday it would’ve been sleep, but I slept so deep last night that there are no complaints here. We’re in the home stretch! 30 weeks already and we won’t make it to 40! Wahoo! That went so dang fast. [Edit: Thank you little "you might also like" widget at the bottom of the post. This is what I'm missing today.]
What I am looking forward to: Finishing these cloth diapers. I have 9.5 done, and then took a break because we started working on some artwork for the nursery and needed the sewing table for assembly. I need to bite the bullet and finish the rest. I’ve got it down to about 35 minutes to sew each one, so really I just need to do it. Also, we’re getting bins of clothes from Cam’s sister on Sunday. She has 2 year old twin boys and gobs of clothes. I can’t wait to sort through everything and wash and put them away in the “dresser” we made last week. And, Cam is staining the gorgeous changing table he built last semester. It’s stunning. I can’t wait to see this nursery come together!
Milestones: 30 weeks. THREE ZERO. That’s so crazy to me. Mentally, I’m still thinking 38 as my goal. The dr. said that’s totally possible. Regardless, though, these boys are coming NEXT MONTH. A little surreal.
Realization of the week: Head down is where it’s at. I get more uncomfortable as the day goes on, but nothing compared to a couple weeks ago. Also, I’m willing to bet that cocoa butter doesn’t do much but relieve itchiness. I have stretch marks on my hips and under my belly button (where the marks from the IVF shots have split). I don’t mind them, though. It’s not like I’m all excited to have stretch marks, but in my mind they just come with the territory. I love these boys and everything that comes with them. Also, people have started to ask if I’m “afraid because sometime these guys are gonna have to come out of me.” For the record, I would much rather have them out than in (once they’re ready to meet the world.) I’m not afraid of their birth day. I honestly can’t wait. I daydream about it on a regular basis. And if IVF taught me anything, it is that as long as Cam is next to me, I can do anything. It’s incredible to me how his hand on my arm can calm me down immediately or listening to his voice is the most comforting thing I can think of. Also, hypnobirthing says a passionate kiss is a good way to get through a tough “surge.” I’m down. :)

How far along? 29 Weeks exactly
Maternity clothes? Yes. But this sweater isn’t a maternity sweater. It’s got about 2 days left of life in it, so I figured I’d give it a last hurrah. I’m still loving those jeans. :)
Best moment this week: Finishing 3 cloth diapers! I’m pretty proud of myself. Also, Cameron gave me a rub down, followed by practicing some counter-pressure/labor techniques. All I gotta say is the riboso (sp?)  is life changing. Also, I do NOT have gestational diabetes. boo-yah! Thanks for not liking treats boys! I was really worried about that because gestational diabetes comes from the placenta. Since I have 2 placentas, I was at greater risk for it, or so they say. I’m just grateful I don’t have to worry about that. I’m having a hard enough time getting enough calories as it is.
Movement: Yes. GRAY GOT OFF MY RIBS. 10 gold stars for that kid. He is the BEST. I have no idea how he found a little extra room to get comfy, but I am so grateful. I’m sure he’ll be back up there eventually, but it sure has been nice!
Food cravings: Fruits & veggies. Also, rootbeer. And ice cream. Weirdy. Those are actually current cravings. Perhaps a caffeine-free pepsi float? I think I mostly just want the carbonation. OMG DR. PEPPER. (I’m worthless. Are you getting that?)
Labor Signs: None. Nash is using my cervix as a punching bag lately. That’s a weird sensation.
Belly Button in or out? I’m pretty impressed with how well my button is hanging in there. lol. I thought for sure it’d be popped by now, but no. There’s a tiny corner that is flirting with the line, but other than that it’s just stretched.
What I miss: Not gonna lie, I had a utter and complete meltdown because I was no longer young and hip and fun and hot. It was fueled by the realization that no one would mistakenly come up and hit on me if we happened to be out at a party of some sort. (Totally rational, I know.) I was also looking through a bunch of fun date ideas and couldn’t muster up the energy for any of it. Cam came home to a crying wife and wails of “I’m the lamest of the lame!” over and over again. I also believe I asked him if he was OK that I had no plans for a date, but wanted to get out of the house. We ended up getting some food at Costco (where TWO separate women commented on how cute I looked…tender mercy from the Big Guy? I think so.) and sitting on the floor of DI (a thrift store) looking through childrens’ books. (I found TACKY: the penguin for $.75. Major score!)
What I am looking forward to: Baby Shower this week! Also, my sister just came and picked up everything to finish up THIS. I can’t WAIT to see it all finished!
Milestones: Nash’s head has dropped. I’m not dilating at all, which is nice, but the Dr. did say that he really has no room to move and he’s ready to go when the time comes. That’s kind of crazy for me to think about. Also, my list of people who are due before me is dwindling. Babies are being born, people!
Realization of the week: Height helps with this whole pregnancy thing. I thought I would be WAY more uncomfortable than I really am at this point. Sure, I have a hard time getting up out of the car or putting on pants in the morning, but after that I’m really just fine. I don’t realize how much bigger I’ve gotten until I see the picture we take for these updates. Major respect to you more petite ladies. I’m measuring 36 weeks right now for a singleton pregnancy and I’m pretty sure if I was having one baby, I would not get the full discomfort of pregnancy. Don’t you worry, I’ll be measuring 44+ before this is all over. All’s fair. :)

Also, I was reading through past journal entries from during IVF and my word I was blessed with one of the most incredible husbands on this earth. I’m sure he had a ton of emotions to sort through too, but he spent every bit of energy he had taking care of me, making sure I was ok, protecting me from well-intentioned idiotic comments, etc. He is such a good man. And me and these boys are the LUCKIEST to have him as a husband and father.

How far along? 28 Weeks 1 Day
Maternity clothes? Yes. Although the black shirt in the picture isn’t a maternity shirt. In fact, it’s my “I don’t want to feel huge today” shirt. Also known as the “magic black shirt.” It makes me look smaller than I really am from the front. From the side, it’s really impossible to look smaller, but that’s ok! I like that we have big boys.
Best moment this week: Lotion rubs before bed. Cam rubs lotion on my belly before we go to sleep and the boys just kick and kick. I like it when all four of us are connected that way.
Movement: All the time. It’s wonderful. Poor Gray is running out of room. He is up on my ribs and if I cough, his head gets smashed against my ribs. If I sneeze, same story. Baths and Ice Packs are helping the soreness at this point.
Food cravings: Just food. And I can’t get enough water. Still no chocolate really. I want fruits and veggies all the time. And I love spicy things. Yum. :)
Labor Signs: None really. Practice “surges” (I’m reading hypnobirthing…) come and go pretty often, but everything stops if I lay down and keep drinking water.
Belly Button in or out? Pretty sure the end is near. Still in though. :)
What I miss: Nothing really right now. I have good time with my husband. The boys are healthy and growing well. We have a beautiful home and I am blessed enough to be able to be at home right now working on my homemaking skills. This is something I’ve dreamed of since I was a little girl. It is already better than I imagined it would be.
What I am looking forward to: Actually getting the guts up to sew the first cloth diaper. Yesterday I sat and stared at it for about an hour. It’s just intimidating to me! Also, plans are moving forward for a baby shower here in Utah! I keep getting e-mails from the girls putting it on and I am getting SO excited! (If you want an invite, e-mail or comment with your address). :)
Milestones: We are officially in the 3rd trimester! This also means that the boys can come any time from here on out and they will be fine. (Granted, it would take a lot of modern technology to keep them healthy), but we’re just cutting down NICU time from now on. These boys are ACTUALLY coming to our family. We will get to meet them. I just can’t wait.
Realization of the week: I am looking forward to the little things the most, I think. I keep dreaming about their features. Their hair, eyes, nose, toes, little beany bodies, everything. And I can’t wait for that new baby smell to come to our house.

How far along? 27 Weeks exactly
Maternity clothes? There is a bit of a panicked undertone when it comes to getting dressed. The jeans are fine, not concerned about those. However, my sister-in-law gave me a huge bag of maternity tops for when I get HUGE (think 4 weeks from now). I just tried on every single one and none even cover my belly. She wore them in her last trimester with her twin boys. She is also about 5’4”. I am 6’0”. Stupid long torso. Not sure what I’ll be wearing in February. Could make for a rather “exciting” Valentine’s Day, don’t you think? jk. I will still have to get out of the house somehow!
Best moment this week: Appointment with the maternal fetal medicine specialist. Hands. down. We got a 90 minute ultrasound. Got to see our boys and get accurate measurements on them. I spent all week trying hard not to be worried. I did find myself paying a whole lot more attention to feeling kicks and movement from Nash, though. So much so, that I freaked myself out because Gray had flipped and I was no longer feeling kicks where he used to kick. Anyhow – we went into the appointment wanting to know what was going on with Nash and why he was “so small” according to our doctor. The ultrasound tech said that whoever did the ultrasound last week probably didn’t know what they were looking for because things couldn’t look more perfect. Nash (Baby A) is nice and squished at the bottom. I’m not dialated at all. He is weighing in at a healthy 2lbs 7oz. He’s in the 61st percentile. Above average. We like that. His head is in the 98th percentile. He’s in the 93rd percentile for height. He’s a big chunk according to the specialist. We like that. :) Gray is currently sitting on Nash’s head. Ah, the wrestling begins. He is weighing in at 2lbs 14oz. He’s in the 79th percentile. Very much above average. His head is in the 94th percentile. He’s in the 97th percentile for height. We finished measuring Gray and I said, “Gosh – we’ve got a linebacker!” The specialist said “You’ve got two!” She said that if I make it to 36 weeks that the boys will definitely come home from the hospital with us and that natural childbirth is back on the table. She also said that she sees no reason our boys won’t be between 5.5 and 6 pounds at birth. I’m thrilled. It’s also really encouraging to know that I am currently carrying over 5 pounds of baby already. We also determined that the boys are, in fact, fraternal. There are two placentas, two amniotic sacs, etc. Also, because we did a 5 day transfer, one embryo splitting earlier enough to create two placentas is impossible at that point. The embryo could’ve still split, but if that was the case, they would be sharing a placenta.
Movement: It seems to come and go. Maybe that’s because I just paid extra close attention this past week. Also, Gray flipped so I thought I was feeling extra kicks from Nash, but that wasn’t exactly the case. Their feet and legs are all in the same place now so I have no idea how I’ll keep them straight when I have to do kick counts next week.
Food cravings: Anything. Still not a huge fan of straight chocolate, but I did down a bunch of heath bar chocolate chip cookies on Sunday that made for a pretty blissful day. I’m just hungry all the time and I can’t get enough water.
Labor Signs: Lots of contractions, but not dialating at all. Which is really encouraging. The boys are taking the contractions just fine, so we should have a beautiful and hopefully uneventful next couple of months.
Belly Button in or out? Pretty sure the end is near. Still in though. :)
What I miss: Sleep. And yes, I realize it will only get worse. Cam no longer asks me how I slept. He asks if I slept at all. Most of the time, the answer is no. Naps are my only saving grace right now.
What I am looking forward to: My nap today. :) Watching Parenthood. Finishing the boys’ bookcase and rearranging the nursery.
Milestones: 9 weeks left! (until 36 weeks) Single digits! Crazy.
Realization of the week: I believe my dad put it best when he said to my mom, “She’s about to embark on a whole new level of tired she doesn’t even know exists yet.” I don’t think I’m quite there, but my word I can see where this is going.

At this point, I think Nash has Cam’s nose, and Gray has mine. We’ll just have to wait and see! :)

How far along? 26 Weeks 1 Day
Maternity clothes? Can you say maternity skinny jeans, in LONG sizes for $17 bucks?? wahoo! I feel like a whole new person! I have been feeling SO frumpy lately and the jeans, oh the magical jeans, have really turned that around. It also might be the incredible face wash system I got for Christmas from my mama, and the new eye-liner and mascara too.
Best moment this week: Besides buying the jeans? LOTS of things. My family getting to feel the boys kick for the first time, seeing our boys on the ultrasound yesterday, sleeping in our own bed after 10 days on vacation (rough life, I know). Meeting up with Julie (AMAZING friend and certified doula) to talk natural childbirth…which was always the plan until I got a phone call from the doctor about 10 minutes ago. After our ultrasound yesterday, we learned that Nash (Baby A) is a full half pound smaller than his brother. I have an appointment on Tuesday with a specialist to hopefully find out what’s going on and what we can do about it. Until then, prayers would be very much appreciated.
Movement: All the time! I am really enjoying it, honestly. Although Gray often gets all up in my ribs. I think he’s bruised something in there. One tiny little kick can make me tear up.
Food cravings: Anything healthy. Fruit, nuts, bagels with cream cheese. (Healthy is a relative term here). I’m still digging on vinegar. Veggie subs from Subway hit the spot every. single. time.
Labor Signs: Oh the contractions. Apparently elevation change can cause contractions. These are fake-os though. They don’t hurt, they’re just uncomfortable and the boys always kick like crazy afterward. I’m sure I would too if all the walls of my house all of a sudden decided to cave in and squish me up for a minute at a time.
Belly Button in or out? Pretty sure the end is near. The top half is looking mighty strange.
What I miss: Nothing really. Maybe the luxury of having a non-high-risk pregnancy. I have been really enjoying not worrying too much about the boys until today. Hopefully I get to regain that peace of mind after the appointment on Tuesday.
What I am looking forward to: Christmas morning with our boys next year. Also, seeing their little bodies in the clothes and blankets we got over the break! I’m also looking forward to my snaps coming in so I can sew up these cloth diapers, pronto.
Milestones: Got all the cloth diapers cut out. Baby B is 2 lbs 6 oz. Baby A is 1 lb. 14 oz. I am carrying over 4 lbs of baby already! Grow boys, grow! We also celebrated our last anniversary as just the two of us. Cam out did himself again. (See the Christmas post) and bought me the book “How do you tuck in a superhero.” It’s really a celebration of mothering boys. I think a hot bubble bath and a long read of that will make me feel better about everything today.
Realization of the week: I need naps. I will probably need a nap every single day until these boys arrive. And that is okay. I refuse to believe anything is wrong with the boys until someone really tells me whats up. It would sure help, though, if the doctor wouldn’t be so vague. 6 days seems an eternity away.